Final Season of The L Word - Season 6

Okay, so who thought the finale sucked? Or the most of the season for that matter?

The whole thing just felt a bit rushed. There wasn't enough build-up, wasn't enough tension. Not to mention, too many loose ends! I thought the parade thingy at the end was plain weird. With everyone smirking like that, it'd seem as if they had all plotted to kill Jenny together. That is till Jenny appears, smirking right along with them.


Being a Jenny fan, I've always found her rather amusing and that her crazy side somehow adds to her charm. The way the producers spent the whole season turning Jenny into this malicious, destructive bitch that goes about destroying all her friends' lives was really sad. Perhaps the intention was to give every character a motive so that we'd be left guessing at the end? I do believe they could done it another way though. A way that doesn't require completely destroying a character to the extend where everyone is glad to be rid of her. And that no one would mourn her death. A tragic end to her already tragic life.

You will be missed Jenny Schecter.

And oh, did I mention? I ♥ Lucy Lawless!


The L Word Online has full episodes of Season 6 but if you've missed the last few seasons, watch it here! :)

Random Shiznat animation

Was looking through my Doropanda Tours collection this afternoon and attempted animating one of the scenes. I'm an amateur so it's a rather simple one. Hope you guys like it :)

Happy Birthday Shizuru!

Happy Birthday Shizuru!! I'm sure Natsuki will make it an extremely special one! ;)

EDIT: Picture added!
Scanner is not working at the moment so i'll edit this post later on with a drawing of the two ;)

Current playlist

Been listening to this playlist a lot recently.

Guess the whole Ruka x Michiru relationship on Last Friends got to me. Ah, the classic gay girl falls in love with straight best friend storyline... Cliched but all of us who's been through it knows just how much it can hurt. To be so close and yet so far.
To quote Shizuru in Dorapanda Tours: Katakoi Mania,

"Even if it was just the air, I couldn't bridge the gap between us..."

Ouch...

And I thought my angsty years were over lol

Perfect Mistress Part I

Whoa, I'd be Riko Tachibana's personal maid anytime! x)




Video snitched from here.

The Big Gay Sketch Show: Lesbian phone sex

This video is extremely funny! You guys have to watch it!! :D

ShizNat centered banner

Whee~ A new banner! Featuring ShizNat of course! ;) Do you guys like it better? Or the current one?

Or these? Let me know! ^_____^

-scoobz-

Coloured ShizNat picture

I fell in love with this picture the moment I saw it <3

Anyway, it took long enough but I've finally managed to get the colouring done! ^^ Hope it looks decent enough ^^" Lol..

Now, for the next step.... Turning it into a banner!~ ;D
-scoobz-

ShizNat Mini Doujin ^____^

This post is dedicated to all the readers of my 'It was Distracting' fanfic. I'm so sorry for keeping everyone hanging :( It's been a pretty difficult semester so please bear with me! I promise to update as soon as I can, possibly during my semester break at the end of April. Thanks to everyone who's thus far read and reviewed it either here or on fanfiction.net! I hope you'll continue to stick! ^____^

Here's small ShizNat doujin to make the wait more bearable! :)

ps. If any of you are imeem members, do check out this group by hatekyefever! At Otome no Ai, it's all about celebrating shoujo-ai! ;)
-scoobz-

The L word Season 5 ^_^

Oh.my.gawd! Season 5 of The L Word is out!! Finally, after all those months of waiting... I just can't wait to get my hands on it ^____^ It's seriously one of the best series around.

The show revolves around the lives of a clique of lesbian friends. First off, there's Shane the playgirl who fell in love, got heart broken, fell in love again, decided to get married but on that fateful day, left her absolutely hot DJ bride, Carmen, at the altar. Then there's Bette and Tina the separated couple on the verge of getting back together again, Jenny the super hilarious crazy bitch with a sad childhood, and Alice the quirky host of The Charts. My personal favourites are Jenny and Alice :D Alice, for her humor and sarcasm and Jenny, well, for her crazy dark side. Seriously dude, she does the most ridiculous things ever! In Season 4, she adopted Saunders, a really really sick dog on the verge of dying. And no, she didn't do it to ease the dog's suffering. It was all for revenge on Stacy Merkin (or rather known as Vagina. Lol...) who wrote unpleasant stuff bout Jenny's book.
So yeah... I'm signing off now to go read the screencaps and reviews.

P.s. I've just got some good news from my parents :D Will probably blog bout it tomorrow..

p.s.s. I want Bette to end up with Jodi!!! And for Carmen to come back!
-scoobz-

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas all!!~ ^___^ Hope everyone had a great one!

And to all yuri lovers out there, hope it was as yurilicious as Shizuru and Natsuki's! Mmmh... I want some cake too! ^_-and as sweet as Chikane and Himeko's!


p.s. I know I missed Shizuru's birthday but I promise to make up for it next year!
-scoobz-

Mai HiME fanfiction: It was Distracting- Chapter 3

Sorry for the lack of blog posts. My current internship job is taking up most of my waking hours. Imagine spending almost 10 hours at work each day! There's not much free time left for myself. Anyway, a HUGE thank you to Charmine for input-ing some colour and correcting my mistakes.

Onward to the story!

It was Distracting
-a Mai-HiME fanfiction by scoobz-

Chapter 3

Shizuru you idiot! Why?? Why did you have to go and kiss her? Shizuru mentally berated herself, her car swerving slightly as she flinched at the memory.

Natsuki….

Yet again, I’ve broken your trust. And there’s no Obsidian lord to blame it on this time.

There’s only me.

Me and my unnatural love for you.

I kept telling myself that I’d content myself with staying best friends. That it was enough. Yet all along, I knew. I already knew it’d never be enough. Every moment spent with you made me want you more and more.

It was all just right. Everything was as it was before the Carnival. Better in fact. We were more open with each other. There were no longer any secrets between us. And knowing my reservations in touching you in case it made you uncomfortable, you even took the liberty of initiating touch with me- taking my hand as we walked, and giving me that strong yet soothing hug that never failed to warm my lonely heart each time we parted. All those caring, thoughtful gestures only served to make me love you more.

It was weeks later when I first noticed you looking at me more than usual- always when you thought I wasn't looking. Those stolen glances gave me hope.

Perhaps…

Perhaps the reality of you and I wasn't so impossible after all.

But I guess I was wrong.

And I guess this is goodbye Natsuki.

For good.

The tears she held back for so long started streaming down her face.

I’m so sorry Natsuki. I’m so sorry…

A fist banging frantically on her window startled her out of her thoughts.

Wh...?

Their eyes met.

Na-tsuki…?

She blinked disbelievingly

No, it couldn't- But it was...

Her foot left the gas pedal.

It was Natsuki!

All of a sudden, bright headlights and a loud resounding horn. Breaking off their gaze, Shizuru could only stare in horror as a large oncoming truck sped towards Natsuki.

Then a loud thud and a sickening crash.

The sound of screeching tires as feet slammed on the brakes.

Pattering feet as she ran towards Natsuki's wrecked bike, eyes darting wildly about, desperately searching.

Choked sobs.

And finally, an anguished "NATSUKI...!!"

xxx

She didn't know how long she knelt there, letting the tears flow. How could she continue living without Natsuki? Continue living with the knowledge that she caused her death? If only she hadn't kissed her, if only she had more self-control. Natsuki would've still been alive.

She took a shaky step towards the cliff.

It's all my fault.

Another.

I killed Natsuki.

And another.

I don't deserve to live...

Now at the edge, she closed her eyes.

Natsuki...

Those crimson eyes were eerily calm when they re-opened.

She had made her decision.

xxx

The end.

I'm serious.

Lol... kidding kidding! There's gonna be another chapter to clear things up. Hang in there.

Reviews are like food to the author's soul. So please, review.

Link to Chapter 1
Link to Chapter 2

-gl-

Mai HiME fanfiction - It was distracting: Chap2

It was distracting
-A Mai HiME fanfiction by scoobz-

Chapter 2

Shizuru. My most precious one. Always with that special smile reserved only for me. You were always there.

Even though I kept pushing you away, unwilling to let you pass the walls I built around me.

You persisted.

Slowly, you crept into my life and my walls began to crumble, gradually letting you in. I began to get used to your presence, came to expect it, and at some point, began to look forward to seeing you. And you never disappointed me Shizuru. During the few times that I actually attended class, you never failed to find me and elicit that damned blush from my face, never failed to escape those crazy fangirls of yours, talk me into lunch and somehow produce an extra bento with those heavenly mayo filled fishballs. I now wonder if you had always made an extra, keeping out a watchful eye for me every single day. Secluded in that garden full of flowers, we'd sit, content with each others' company. A place now filled with so many fond memories, the place where I first met you.

That night when Nao was about to dig my eyes out, I was prepared to die. I couldn’t care less. Everything I had been fighting for, everything I had stood against, it was all a lie. I could no longer see any reason to live. But when you suddenly appeared I was terrified. Terrified of what she might do to you. I didn’t know you were a HiME then.

If I had known, I probably would've have worried more about what you would do to Nao.

You stepped in, saved my life. I was grateful to some extend, but a part of me wished I had just died there. I had lost everything. Even Duran, my faithful child wouldn’t come when I called.

And in a way, I had lost you.

The image of the best friend I had known all this while was shattered. I felt utterly lost and betrayed. I wasn't ready to accept your feelings, wasn't ready to love. It was all so foreign to me. I couldn't understand this complicated feeling called love that drove people to do the insane things they normally would not. Shy and timid Yukino, Mikoto, you...

When Nao had said that part about trusting only yourself, something clicked inside me, suddenly realizing that you were the one who helped me see the world again, you who showed me someone cared.

You, who were always there.

It was always you.

Shizuru…

That's when I knew, I'd do anything to protect you too. To make sure that you were safe from harm, safe from me, safe from yourself, from what you had become because of me. I didn’t know it then, or maybe I just didn’t want to know, but I was probably falling for you too. All the love, care and concern you showed me subconsciously seeped through my defenses. Duran's size was a strong testament of how strongly I felt for you. And I felt vulnerable. I had never trusted anyone since my mother’s death, never needed anyone. But you Shizuru, you made me smile, made me feel special, feel loved. Yes, loved. I now know the word. And like I told you before we faded into oblivion, I'm glad you loved me.

And I..

I…

I think I might love you too Shizuru…

And if it's for you, I'm willing to try, willing to take a chance.

Life without you is definitely something I can't imagine. The thought of going through each day without your smiles, your teasing, your little touches, and just feeling your presence close-by fills me with a sense of dread and emptiness. I need you in my life, that's for sure.

There was so much passion in that kiss, so much repressed desire.

Even now, the taste of you still lingers.

My skin still tingles...

It was so much more than anything we ever shared- not that we kissed that much. In fact the only one I remember was the one I gave you during the carnival and that had been innocent, clumsy even. Just a simple press of my lips on yours. But it was enough to pull you out of that pit of desolation.

The pit I never want to see you drown in again.

Therefore….

“Shizuru! Chotto matte!” I yelled running after her. “Shizuru!!”

“Damn it!” I cursed as her red sports' car sped by me. Jumping on my Ducati, I revved up the engine and raced off after her, features grim with determination. I will not lose you so easily Shizuru. Not when I’m finally sorting out my feelings for you.

Wait for me, Shizuru...

Won't you please...

...wait.

xxx

Omake 2:

Natsuki: Say, Shizuru. Could I take that baby for a spin? -stares longingly at Shizuru's sports' car-

Shizuru: Ara... I thought you'd never ask. -pounces- You can take me for a spin anytime Na-tsuki.

Natsuki: Wh..what? -blushes- B..baka!! I meant the car!

Shizuru: -whispers seductively while licking Natsuki's ear- Or how about you take me for a ride in that car?

Natsuki: Mhmm... -distractedly rubs Shizuru back- O..okay...

~TBC~

Note: chotto matte - wait

Please do leave a comment! :)

Story can also be found here. Reviews are appreciated!

Mai HiME fanfiction - It was distracting

Finally after months of just lurking about and greedily gobbling down every piece of Shiznat fanfiction and artwork, I decided to try contributing back. So came the translation of Katakoi Enka, Shizuru's character song and the drawing of Natsuki- which wasn't very good. Then another drawing of Natsuki- still not very good but better, which was edited into a birthday wish for Natsuki. And now, finally, the unveiling of my very first fanfic.....

It was distracting
-A Mai HiME fanfiction by scoobz-

Chapter 1

It was distracting. Really. We were hanging out as usual at my apartment and she was sitting with her legs curled up on the couch on with only an oversized t-shirt on, leaving little left to the imagination. A thriller with lots of bloody scenes was on, my kind of show, but most times I found my eyes wandering the length of those smooth creamy legs. My fingers itched to touch, to run my fingers lightly up those milk white thighs. I wonder if she’s ticklish… Unbidden thoughts of her squirming beneath my touch suddenly flashed through my mind. No! No! Bad thoughts! Quickly I shook them away, feeling a hot blush creep up my face. Since when did I become such a pervert? I thought, annoyed by my thoughts.

“Ara ara. I wonder what my Natsuki is thinking to bring such a cute blush to her face.”

Caught.

“Nn..nothing!!” I stammered out.

“Is that so?"

"Or perhaps Natsuki was thinking of trying that with me?” Shizuru asked huskily with a seductive smile, gesturing towards the television.

Try what?

Confused, I glanced at it only to turn away immediately, blushing an even deeper shade of red. A couple was making out onscreen, hands groping each other in, well, places. I blushed even deeper. “Shizuru!!”

“Mou. Does Natsuki find me unattractive then?” A pout.

“No!! I didn’t mean it like that!”

Comparing herself to the heroine in the movie, Shizuru said sadly “Well, I guess mine aren’t that huge.”

My eyes followed as her hands moved to cup her breasts.

“Neither are my lips as luscious as hers.” Fingers lightly brushed against moistened lips.

“And legs not as long and smooth…” Shizuru’s voice trailed off, a hand slowly tracing a path up her legs.

Higher.

And higher.

“Oh God, if she goes any higher I’d be able to see….” My eyes widened, suddenly realizing what I had been doing. I looked away immediately feeling my whole face on fire.

“Na..tsu..ki.”

I braced myself and looked up, expecting more teasing about my behavior. I was however surprised to see Shizuru watching me with a serious expression, her eyes unreadable. The usual smile was gone, replaced by an almost hungry look. But that couldn’t be right.

We just ate didn’t we?

“Shi..zuru?”

Suddenly there was a warm pressure on my lips. The sensation was... oddly pleasing. I leaned in unconsciously, wanting more. The kiss deepened, a hand found its way to my face, the other lightly caressing the skin under my shirt. My skin was burning, my mind whirling. All I could think of was how good it felt, how right it felt.

Then just as suddenly as it had started, it was gone.

Troubled crimson eyes met my own confused ones. “Kanin na Natsuki! Kanin na! I didn’t mean to do that.”

“I… I’d better go now. I understand if you…” her voice cracking.

Swallowing she continued “If you don’t want to see me again, Natsuki.” she said dejectedly.

I stared at her mutely as she fought to hold in the tears that I knew threatened to fall. I could see how much it broke her to say that. Memories during the carnival came rushing back. Shizuru’s hurt look when I had rejected her, her tears, her empty hollow expression. Even when she rescued me from Nao, it was as if she was on auto pilot, an empty vessel with a missing soul, out to destroy everything that made me unhappy. The pain I saw in her eyes as we fought and the possessive yet tender way she had held me after trapping me in the church all flashed in front of my eyes in slow motion. I wanted desperately to hold her, to tell her that it was alright, that I...

That I lo...cared for her too.

But that would be even more cruel, wouldn't it? Especially when I know it might be more.

Shizuru...

Shizuru smiled sadly at me.

To me, it seemed more like a grimace.

Taking my silence to mean the worst, she said quietly with her head bowed “I understand. Goodbye Natsuki."

One final goodbye

With those words, she left. And somewhere deep within me, I knew that if I didn't go after her now, she was never coming back.

Shizuru...

Nothing that felt so right could be wrong. Could it?

Then why?

Why couldn't I go after her?

xxx

omake 1:

Natsuki: Oi! Shizuru wait! What did you do to my legs you stupid author? -glares-

Scoobz: It wasn't me! -shivers in fear-

Natsuki: I don't care! Find a way to cure it now! or else...

-Shizuru walks in with a bottle of scented oil-

Shizuru: Ara ara... Let me massage it for you Na-tsu-ki. -stares pointedly at author-

Natsuki: -blushes- Shi-zuru!!

-Scoobz hurries out of room as images of the two covered in oil signaled the start of a nosebleed-

~TBC~

Note: kanin na - forgive me
ara ara - Somethin' similar to 'my my'
baka - stupid/idiot

So, let me know what you guys think :)

Story can also be found here. Reviews are appreciated!
-gl-

Happy Birthday Natsuki!

Ok, i know this is a few days late but i've been busy with finals... Anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATSUKI!!~

Creative Spark -Part II-

You walk over to me
I can’t help but to stop breathing
I try not to stare
To marvel at your beauty
And your perfect legs

You smile and say hi
My mouth is dry
All I do is stutter something unintelligible
You must think I’m such an idiot

You flood my thoughts every moment of the day
Why can’t I get you out of my mind?

Sitting close to me
You lean in and ask if I’d like to dance
Your arm pressing against mine
Your warm breath tickling my ear
I swallow hard

You put your hands on my shoulders
Your fingers lightly grazing my skin
And start moving to the music
I move along
Entranced by you

My body is trembling
My knees are weak
I can hardly breathe
You have no idea what you’re doing to me

You suddenly look up and smile
My breath catches in my throat
I can’t help but to think how gorgeous you look
It’s all I can do to stop myself from kissing you

What is it you do?
What is it you say?
Why cant I break out?
I don’t wanna love you

And yet,
No matter what i do
No matter how much i try
You’re still all I think about…

Dedicated to the one i'd never have the courage to tell....
-gl-

Katakoi Enka by my Shizuru

Shizuru Fujino with her sexy Kyoto-ben voice, dangerous calm, n' teasing countenance is so hot- So freaking hot n' yet so tortured, so angst ridden. All hidden away beneath a cheerful n' polite mask. Always smiling, always adept, the kaichou, the perfect student. Although she looks like she needs protecting, she was the one doing the protecting. Heck, look at the way she finished off her opponents with just one swift, graceful movement. Handling her nagatina with so much skill n' poise. And the haunted smile afterwards, the dark, bitter amusement... ultimate heartbreaking coolness man~ you just cant help feeling the raging emotions hidden behind her calm exterior. Her heart aching for the girl she can never have, breaking over her obvious rejection, and yet, still willing to do anything, everything to protect her, never letting go. Ah... such heart wrenching pain. It's both beautiful n' sad at the same time. So here it is... Shizuru's character song from My HiME- Katakoi Enka sung by her seiyu Naomi Shindou. Man.. her cryptic Kyoto-ben always sends shivers up n' down my spine.



Lyrics (translation taken frm here)

Nureta kami ni sotto
kuchibiru yosete me wo tojite
Namida gundara akan?
I gently lay my lips on
your moist hair and close my eyes
May I not wallow in my sorrow?

Mune wo kogashite oikaketa
Ayakashi mitai ni oikaketa
Itsuka issho ni shinitai wa. Ah,
Yume ni ayatsurare mau koi no hana
I chase you as my heart is set aflame
I chase you as if I were a demon
One day, together we shall go into death. Ah,
The flower of love dances, manipulated by a dream

Kaze ga fuita dake de
Chiriyuku sadame nara
Dakiatta sono hi ni moeteshimaitai
Soshite beni no iro ga asete yuku you ni
Itoshii hito no naka hai ni naritai no
If we were to be set apart
by the mere blowing of the wind
I would set the day that we embraced in flames
And turning into ashes of fading crimson,
I long to disintegrate inside my love

Omoikirenai wabishisa to
Tsutae sobireta wabishisa to
Uchi ga shindara naki haru no? Ah,
Kikeba karesou na katakoi sakura
The wretchedness of persistent thoughts and
The wretchedness of their suppression
Will you weep for me if I die? Ah,
The sakura of unrequited love seemingly withers upon hearing it

Hoshi ga ‘rin’ to nareba
Yomichi wo terasu kara
Omoi ha tomaranai moete moetsukite
Kondo koso nigasanai
Kono mi ga kietemo nigasanai
Once the stars cry out
They will illuminate the night
Irripressible love burns everything into entirety
This time you will not escape
Even if this body were to perish, I will not let you go

Kaze ga fuita dake de
Chiriyuku sadame demo
Omoi ha tomaranai moete moetsukite
Kondo koso nigasanai
Kono mi ga kietemo nigasanai
Even if the mere blowing of the wind
Were to set us apart
Irripressible love burns everything into entirety
This time you will not escape
Even if this body were to perish, I will not let you go

Omokage ni youhodo Koyoi midaremasu...
Intoxicated by your countenance, I descend into chaos tonight...

ps. d' photo on top was somewhat distracting *blushes*


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EDIT: Those who want the Katakoi Enka mp3 can mail me at scoobz87@yahoo.com ^__^

My HiME- Shiznat fanart

Thought i'd share some shiznat fanart i found recently :)



- Lang Bak - by ~Jango-Joe on deviantART

My HiME

Omg!!~ My-HiME so rocks!! The drama, the emotions, it’s all so freakin’ intense! Every episode was like a rollercoaster ride, leaving me feeling totally blown away and adrenaline pumping thru my veins. Ok, I don’t wanna spoil it by revealing too much so here’s a short summary :)

HiME stands for Highly-advanced Materializing Equipment- I have no idea why they use ‘equipment’ instead of ‘people’. After all, all 12 HiME’s are human. (Well, 13 if we count the SEARRS engineered HiME). Anyway, HiMEs have the power to materialize weapons by charging photon particles and call upon their Childs’ to help them in battle. Both the weapon and Child is specific to the HiME (Wonder if the enzymatic reaction inspired this show… *shrugs*)

At first we’re led to believe that the HiMEs’ main duty is to fight off Orphans (horrible monsters with killer intent) but later on we discover that the HiMEs have to fight and defeat each other’s Childs. The last one standing would then marry the Obsidian Lord and gain supreme power over the HiME star. Tricky part is, a HiME has to put her most important person at stake when she calls upon her Child so when the Child is killed, the HiMEs’ most important person disappears in green sparkles as well. Most of the HiME are friends and have no intent on fighting but due to a series of events, the HiMEs are one-by-one led into situations where they have to struggle between love, friendship, jealousy, ambition, and loyalty. Omg, the intensity of all the raging emotions… This is a must-watch!

Btw, HiME actually means princess in Japanese.

My HiME snippet

Omg omg!! take a look at this AMV i found on youTube... it's so cool!!~ i so can't wait to watch My-HiME :)



AMV created by bakablonde.